sushimabb

poetry • art • shadows

behind the screen: a raw portairt

THE HUMAN BEHIND THE ART

I'm not just a creator - I'm a 17-year-old navigating the beautiful chaos of existing between worlds. This isn't my artist statement; this is my truth.

MY DAILY RITUALS

2 AM: Where code meets poetry. The world sleeps while I'm translating shadows into CSS and heartbeats into chord progressions

School breaks: Scribbling verses in margins of math notebooks, hiding art between equations

Late nights: Trading sleep for creation, because some ideas refuse to wait for daylight

THE REAL STRUGGLES

Explaining to friends why I'd rather debug code than go to parties

Balancing algebra homework with album compositions

Fighting the voice that says "you're too young to create anything meaningful"

Choosing between finishing a drawing or studying for tests

MY CREATIVE SANCTUARY

My bedroom isn't just a room - it's my universe. It houses:

The laptop that holds my digital dreams

The guitar that carries my unsaid words

The sketchbook that contains my shadow selves

The playlist that understands me better than people

WHY I CREATE ANYWAY

Because when I code, I build worlds where I make the rules. When I make music, I speak truths I can't say out loud. When I draw, I externalize the demons so they don't consume me from inside.

MY SECRET WEAPONS

Caffeine & chaos: My fuel for late-night coding sessions

Metal & melancholy: The soundtrack to my existence

Alone time: Where my best ideas are born

Vulnerability: My greatest strength disguised as weakness

A CONFESSION

I don't have everything figured out. I'm just a teenager with too many feelings and not enough hours in the day. But I've learned that our scars make beautiful art, and our contradictions make us interesting.

This isn't my final form - it's just my current iteration. And I'm excited to see what I become next.

sushimabb